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31/3/2011


最近习惯了两样事情。

1st.

每当我起床的那一刻....

都会注意自己的电话....

看她是否有信息我....

2nd

每天非与她信息不可....

去到哪里都要带着电话....

天天都手不离机....

希望这个习惯都不会改变。

已经有一个星期没和她见面了。

很想她。

好想她。

我真的真的很想念她。

很想拥抱她。

原来爱上一个人的感觉是不同的。

而喜欢一个人的感觉也是不同的。

那种感觉是说不出的感觉。

要自己体会才能懂。

现在的我只知道....

爱她一个就够了。

迁就她一个就够了。

只为她一个付出就够了。

她是我唯一一个。

也是我的最后一个。

昨天我回答了很多问题。

也问了她很多 ''如果.......''

如果那些所谓的如果....

都不会发生....

那该多好啊~

真的真的不要发生啦~~

我朋友也说我变了。

有好也有坏。

好就是。

嘴巴很甜。=]

坏就是。

整天心情不好。

哪有啦~~

又是一个不了解我的人。:S

满脑子都是她。

5天。

快点到5/4/2011

我要见我老婆..... TT









Mr.LazyBoii

Fuck Myself

29/3/2011


now the time is 405 am...

I dun sleep tonight.

23/3/2011 night...

I have done a Wrong thing.

I bring food go to her house.

her dog.......

bark her....in front of me....

I saw her suffer face but she still said NotThing...

I'm so Angry myself and my friend.

first time shout to my friend '' get into car!!! ''

I dun know how to said them...

mus have ONE time let you see her de....

but not now....not this moment....

when I get into the car....

so worry her and angry myself...

I'm No Mood adi :(

BAD MOOD!!

but still go to yam cha....

juz Hide my Bad Mood...

when I'm back home....

FB-ing.

I saw her Comment.

'' 原来。。很痛。。痛得眼泪都快掉下来了 ''

when I saw this....

my tears came out :(

coz I can feel that how hurt it's...

I cry inside my heart....

so suffer....

What I've Done??

maybe I should not go then she will not get hurt...

Is me...

All Is My Fault!!

I Hate Myself!!

I cant protect her...

I'm Do Nothing!!

juz a piece of Shit....

I cant forgive myself....

no smile adi....

cant smile anymore....

Sorry....dear~

Is me make you get hurt...

Is me.....



Mr.Nicolai JL

Not Good At All

28/3/2011


today....

dun know why....

so sleepy...

nothing to do...juz sleep like Pig :P

today I'm so Excited coz tonight can see her.

she call me wait for her....

ok :)

but 830pm she sms to me.

she cant come adi coz no one fetch her come.

haiz....nvm lah....is ok de....

always tell to myself '' nvm lah.... ok de...''

actually I'm not ok at all :(

she tell me '' u must unhappy one...''

but I'm lie to her...

said '' I'm ok...no unhappy...next time lah...''

finally I'm telling to her....

''sorry..I'm lie to u. actually I'm not good at all..''

miss her everyday...every moment...

my tears come out adi. :(

juz litle bit....tears come out..=[

then she said...

Wednesday back to Pinang for 扫墓...

maybe Thursday back Serdang.

wait again.....

nvm....I Like To Wait For You.

juz Emo now :(

so miss her :(

我很想念你。老婆。



Mr.Nicolai JL

Grey Day

25/3/2011


tonight I'm so miss her.

although wednesday we have see each other

but.....

I'm miss her so much :[

I cant let my brain STOP to thinking her.

I dun know why....

coz I Love Her so much...

I saw LouZai them....

have little bit scare.....

I dun know wat happen both of them.

I'm juz scare we will Like them.

hope this will not happen so fast.

I'm gonna study University(UPM) or Form 6.

I cant imagine my new school life.

I'm juz dun wan Neglect her.

now she is my one part of my life.

without her beside of me....

I think I cant Survive anymore.

tonight.....

dun know why....

my mood juz be Cool.

at home..

juz Shut Up at all...

Miss Her Non-Stop :(



Mr.Nicolai JL

Worse Day

23/3/2011


today is the SPM result come out day.

I'm wake up 7am on this morning.

eat breakfast with my parents.

then she sms to me.

said she have a Nightmare.

she said she Die adi....

Laofe Pofa...dun scare~ok?

I'm always be with you no matter where you going.

If you really byebye...I accompany you.

then 1150am walk to school.

I saw my old friend.

they all so Beautiful adi but Laofe Pofa most Beautiful :P

1pm take my SPM result loh....................

when I saw my SPM result...

SHIT!!!

juz have a piece of SHIT in front of me.

BM = C
BI = D
BC = D
Science = B
Math = C+
Add.M = G
Akaun = D
Moral = D
Sej = E

actually my mood is Ok one...

but my friends....

their result Better than me.

but them said so Sad coz unlike their result.

HEY!!

you have A but I'm one A also dun have.

Got G one!

dun say in front of me..OK!?

I dun know what I'm doing when I was exam.

DREAMING?!

if is like that...I better go Die!

my mood not good at all.

not because of her is my Result.

I'm juz make my family Disappointed to me.

always make them sad.

their only Hope....

I'm juz Spoil it their Hope.

I'm juz dun wan back home coz cant Face to them. :(

Lucky have her beside of me.

juz have 1 hours 3o min.

my mood get better.

thx...Laofe Pofa :) Love you <3

but when I back to home.

my bad mood coming again.

when I'm was blogging.

my tears come out adi. :(

Sorry....

so sorry....

my dad and my mom.

after crying.

I need to Introspect what I'm doing in last time.

And I need to work hard...

Important is....

Dun Make Them Disappointed Again.



Mr.Nicolai JL

SPM eve

22/3/2011


today I din do anything.

juz at home on9...sms...

also din go to new house there work.

I'm so foolish. right?

when I need money juz tke it from parents.

I dun wan like that adi.

I need a job now.

I dun wan use their money adi...

at night.

I'm feel stress and nervous :(

dun know why will have this feeling...

In front of friend call them dun nervous.

but me....

nervous until no feeling adi....

UPSR and PMR result also dun have this type of feeling.

only this time :(

I'm so scare my SPM result will BAD.

I juz dun wan my parents disappointed to me.

to them...is their only HOPE.

I also dun wan my result get worse.

coz this Paper is to decide my Future.

Hope...hope...hope....

now juz only HOPE.


Mr.Nicolai JL

夜市

21/3/2011


今天第一次陪她逛夜市。

先陪她吃Asam Laksa。

之后就逛逛咯。

然后她要上去我家哦。

天啊~~

我家真的真的很乱的。

可是心软的我还是答应了她。

她上了我家就有一股冲动要帮我收拾。

哈哈^^

我老妈跟她讲了很多东西。==

她只对蛋糕有兴趣罢了啦~

讲太多。很烦啦~

之后就很 ''忙'' 了。:)

10pm 就陪她去找她妹妹。

而我就去meet我朋友咯。

tea until 1am :P

haiz.......

so miss my Laofa Pofe :(

真的不舍得她.....



Mr.Nicolai JL

二人世界 ♥

19/3/2011


终于能和她见面了。

心情兴奋:]

可是第一次和她约会竟然迟到。:(

迟整1个小时。:[

很对不起她。

最内疚的是....

她买了戏票但过钟了。

就是因为我的关系。

浪费了她的时间。金钱。

臭巴士!!!

等你等了差不多1个小时。

终于见到她了。:]

很开心:)

和她逛街。买下一场的戏票。去丢篮球。:)

第一次和她看戏。:]

" Rango "

一点都不冷。很Warm~ :P

之后就去她家。:)

虽然有点紧张。但有她在就不会了。

其实她家人很好。很容易沟通。

二人世界。:)

10pm 她爸爸就载我回家。


laofa pofe~
laofe gongfi jinfi tianfe henfa aifa nifi :)
laofe gongfa haihi shifu nafi juha huafi...
duife bufo qife~
dife yifi cifu jiufa chifu daofe leha...
qingfe yuanfa liangfu loafa gongfi.
rufe jinfi laofa pofe zaifu laofa gongfi deha xinhe zhongfi
shifi zuife zhongfu yaohi leha.
laofa gongfi yongfi yuanhi aifa nifi.
yifi shengfa yifi shife.



Mr.Nicolai JL

The Library

18/3/2011


today going to Cut my hair :P

so excited :)

at night.

go out with my fren again.

tis time i'm really Stupid lo...

Believe wat them said...Library~==

actually is go to club.

RM18 to drink a Big cup of alcohol.

that place ok lo...

next time I can bring her go :)

or maybe she wont like that place.

coz so Bising.

then tonight I cant sleep any more.

coz tomolo I gone go out with her.

so happy.

happy until 445am then Sleep. :P



Mr.Nicolai JL

Last Day at Kem

13/3/2011


last day in Kem Temasya Rimba Templer.

today I cry...

first time cry at early morning 630am.

coz my Bentong n Sarawak fren wan GO BACK.

很舍不得她们 :(

but I believe we will meet again :)

then I go to find LG.

last time go to find her...go to her dorm :(

last time sit in front of her bed happy with her :(

9am is turn to Sabeh fren GO BACK.

Ying...Teo...Tan wan go back lo~

I will miss them so much :)

950am.

my father came adi.

I need to said Goodbye to her. :(

Before I leave her.

we xxxx 2gether :)

first time do like that.

I Love You. LG

when I back to home.

I'm feel uncomfortable. :(

coz she not beside of me.

miss her so much.

miss my PLKN fren also.



Mr.Nicolai JL