2011年4月13日

很想你 ♥

12/4/2011


晚上有点心情不好。

每次一心情不好就会乱想一通。

要过几天才能和老婆出了。

等啊等~

想老婆就快想到发疯了。

现在只能做的就是------ WAIT.

haiz....... :(

很想....好想....超想....老婆。

太想老婆了。

老婆好可爱哦。

问了我一题可爱的问题。

'' wofa kefi yihe pengfe nifi nahi bianfu mahe? ''

当然可以~ =)

因为你是我的傻老婆咯~ =D

今天又肥了。:(

原本是陪朋友去麦买东西罢了。

结果她们又要去喝茶。

我原本很忍得饿的咯~

害到我.......叫东西吃了 :(

将辛苦才瘦了那么一点点。

又要一夜之间肥..........起来。:(

下次....无论如何都要忍了。

老婆看完我的日记了。

真的好快哦~

将也证明她在家很闷。

所以才看完我的日记。

:P

我问老婆 '' 有何感受 ''

老婆说.........

'' 生气。开心。感动。''

我就好奇。

为什么会生气叻。

老婆说........

'' 你说你为了一个人被车撞那件事。''

宝贝....

我知道你不想我有事。

可是。

我更加不想你有事啊~

如果....如果真的发生了。

我会为了老婆你而牺牲自己。

我懂老婆不允许我这样做。

也不可以这样做。

但我不能眼睁睁的看着你受伤。

我会觉得自己很无能。

没有保护你。还让你受伤了。

就像上次老婆被狗咬那件事,

我已经让老婆受伤了一次。

我就不允许自己再让老婆受伤害。

到现在我偶尔还想起那件事。

看到老婆那痛苦的表情。

我的心很痛。很痛。

所以现在。

我无论如何都要保护你。

不再让你受伤。

如果我真的有事了。

我答应你。

我会坚强的活下去。

不会丢下老婆一人。

打勾勾 :)

我发觉.....

自从我们吵架了。

我更加爱老婆了。

我更加珍惜老婆了。

天天都想念她。

很想每一天都想见到她。

很想每一天都给她一个拥抱。

原来我真的不能没有她。

如果没了她在我身边。

我不懂我的日子会变成怎样了。

所以不要吵架。是最好不过的了。

=]





Mr.Lazy Boii


2011年4月12日

=]

11/4/2011


at morning...

my mood still like yesterday night.

today no msg '' 早安 ''

so uncomfortable.

I juz on9...din eat breakfast...

then I saw her FB.

she have blog.

so SHOT to me....

then I go to saw her blog.

my tears come out adi =(

sorry....dear

I should not get angry for you.

I should not respond to your message.

so sorry dear....

Is my fault.

1230pm

she said sorry to me.

actually I wanted find her and said same thing to her...

but I saw her what she write in FB is '' Just Leave Me Alone Plsss ''

I scare she angry me...

actually is not.

Is me think too much.

I'm also said sorry to her.

while SMS-ing with her....

my head so pain....I need to rest and take medicine.

rest until 330pm.

also sms-ing with her.

she ask me '' 老公...你还爱我么? ''

of coz!

Love you so much.

after we quarrel...I love you more than last time.

I'm so regret why we will quarrel.

I will cherish you more than last time.

I will love you more than ever.

Never Change My Love For You.

Never Change It.

430pm raining ==

gonna off computer and go to my bed room.

sms until I'm sleep.

aiyo~sleep again ==

today I'm juz like Pig :P

always sleep and nothing to do...

7pm

she came to my house.

so happy and I wait this day so long adi...

when my mom at home...

we still do it.

we see drama together and eat together...

time gone so fast.

need said GoodBye to my dear.

so miss her...

yesterday juz had a Nightmare.

all unhappy thing is OVER and GONE.

today is today.

No One Can BLOCK Our Relationship.

NO ONE.

9 more days =]




Mr.Lazy Boii


2011年4月10日

Black Day

10/4/2011


wat a bad day...

so suck...

I 'm juz alone and lonely....

first time hurt myself juz for her...

I never do that before...

juz hardly hit the wall....juz hit it...

while hit the wall...my tears come out....

like raining.... =(

my hand not pain...

my heart pain more than my hand...

I'm juz cant accept.....'' he in your heart ''

I 'm juz cant calm down anymore....

not angry...juz cant control my emotions....

I know you love me...

and I love you too....

Is was not your fault...

Is me....

first time need to face this type of thing....

I wanna reply you msg but dun know need write what to you...

sorry dear....is me make you unhappy too...

I'm also have happy one...

coz you confess to me...

老婆。

我想对你坦白。

我不知道今天到底发生了什么事。

我也真的忘记了。我胡思乱想过什么。

当我看到第一封信息时。

我的手是在抖的。

我的心很痛很痛。

我已经冷静不了。

再当我看第二封信息时。

你说 '' 要忘记很难 '' 。

我就对着我家的墙壁拼命的打。

有几大力就打几大力。

我真的控制不了自己。

我答应过你。

不会伤害自己。

这次我做不到。对不起。

我不是不要回复你。

而是我不知要怎样回复你。

我会原谅你。

就算他在你心里。

就算你还想他。

我还是会原谅你。

因为你是我的唯一一个可爱的女人....可爱的老婆。

没有人能代替你在我心里的位子。

我只是怕。

怕~~~

有一天你会离开我。

我懂我是个女生。

是个 '' 正常 '' 的女生。

我不想有人从我身边抢走你。

还有10天就是第二周年了。

是我们在一起的第二个月了。

420

我不想有任何事情阻碍我们在一起。

我不想那一天那么快就来。

老婆。对不起。

请原谅我。

你说 '' 我们之间是不是变了 ''

这我并不晓得。

我没变过。老婆也没。

我还是一样爱你。

永远不变。

今天的 '' 晚安 '' 有点冷淡。





Mr.Lazy Boii


凌乱的一天

9/4/2011


at morning not mood at all.

dun know what happen to me...

suddenly my mood juz not good...

maybe is miss her too too much adi....

I bought 2 can shandy....

I thought I can drunk one....

but no use for me....

cant drunk one...

my mind still Clear....

my mind juz Full of her....

miss her so much...

wanna hug her....

wanna kiss her...

and need her now....

afternoon rain heavily....

I'd like to go out taking a Shower...

but I din do like that coz I know she will scold me one....

and dun wan SMS-ing with me...

I juz go to my bed room...

started I chating with her.

but I fall asleep...

so tired adi...

my fren ask me '' wanna see movie? ''

when I was sleep...pls dun ask me question...

coz I will answer Incorrect answer to you one...

then I find back my fren...

I said I wan see movie...

wow~~

she also go mines.

so happy lah me~ :D

but......

when I meet her....

her mood not good at all =[

coz she saw a Fucker.

that Fucker wanna take my wife hp no. =[

really beh song lah~!!

get out of her!!

Is you make her life unhappy...

If I see you again....

dun blame me....

then I fast to buy a Tortoise to her...

I dun know she like it onot....

I know she hv many this type of tortoise...

I buy for her juz wanna her happy...

and I(the tortoise) will accompany her....

every moment...

every time...

every day...

915pm go into Cinema.

haiz....

I was reluctant to leave her =(

hard to come by to meet her...

so fast wanna said ByeBye to her =[

the movie----鬼也笑

what the hell....

really scarred me one...

wanna see and wanna scare...

many emotions came out ==

funny...nervous...stress...scare....

OMG~~

now have little bit scare Dark adi....

unlike see Ghost movie....

but see with her...

hehe^^

wont scare anymore =]

XD

hope she will happy...

老婆。

我真的真的很想你。

老婆。

别不开心了。

老公会陪在你身边度过一切难关。

老公陪你一起承担它。

老公陪你一起去克服它。

没有东西能够阻碍我们在一起。

现在不是你自己一人了。

你还有我。

我会带给你快乐。

拿走你的不快乐。

我会永远支持你。

我会永远爱你。







Mr.Lazy Boii


2011年4月8日

Love You No Reason

7/4/2011


老婆~

其实...13/2那天我对你的喜欢已经变成爱了。

不过是少许的爱....

因为那个时候....老婆还没和他分手。

我怕我一下子爱你太深会伤害到你和我。

直到你和他分了。

我对你的爱又增加了~

可是他却要和你在回一起。

我当时的心情真的很难受....很不开心....

这件事过了以后。

和老婆你在一起的日子很开心....很幸福...

在营里的每一晚....

我都在想你....有时还会胡思乱想...

为了你写日记....

写日记已成了我现在的习惯了....

老婆不开心...我的心情也跟着不开心。

老婆很烦恼...我也一起和你烦恼。

老婆生病了...我会很担心你...很心痛。

就在Majlis的那天....

我要和你说那三个字。

可是时间不允许。太夜了....你也累了。

我就等到明天。

我要回的那时刻。

我真的不舍得你了。

心情很沉默。

毕竟是第一次。

我不太会主动...勇敢...会害羞...

还把现场的气氛给弄尴尬了。

老婆却.....

谢谢你。老婆。

就这一次后。

我真的很确定....我真的爱你了。

那种爱的感觉.....

是无法说出口的爱...也不懂如何去解释给你。

我这一生人之中从没真正的爱过一个人....

是老婆你让我感受到....

也让我有这个机会好好地去爱你。

你问 '' 没有理由的爱哟? ''

是!

是没有理由的爱你!

Love You No Reason .

不是因为你美而成为爱你的理由。

不是因为你的魅力而成为爱你的理由。

也不是因为你的个性....等。

通通都不是。

而是我真的爱你了。

根本就不需要任何理由。

我已深深的爱上老婆你了。

不再是喜欢你什么而喜欢你或爱上你....

而是对你动了真情。

我会不顾一切来达到你给我的要求。

会浪费我的时间。金钱。

甚至是我的性命。

这就是我给你的回答。

谢谢老婆。

给了我一题很难的题目。

这题目让我想了一整个晚上。

不知道老婆是否认同我的回答。

要坦白说哦~




Mr.Lazy Boii


2011年4月7日

Unlucky

6/4/2011


today go to Bangi hear Undang.

wake up early at 7am.

so tired ...man~ :(

I thought can sleep at Undang class there one...

cant sleep at class one....

who tell me can sleep at class one??!!

suck!

lucky have darling acc me when the class go on...

thx darling ;)

love you...

430pm back to home...

of coz happy when I'm back home.

coz can FB-ing and Song-ing =]

but have little bit tired...

darling ask me go to rest...then go lo~

no sleep lah...juz rest at my bed and hear song.

9pm need go down to wait my friend.

then I go to In Money to my Digi.

OMG~!!!!

type wrong NUMBER!!

so??!

No Accept My Money lo~!!!

WTF!! so suck ~ man......

what happen to me o??

waste RM10 to other ppl leh~

ME!! Eat SHIT!!

so '' Lucky ''

right? =[

another unlucky is....

the hp----K850i fall down~ =[

also becoz of me....

so SUCK!!!! a..................................................

today what day o??

that hp juz can Open but cant see Picture adi...

need to repair...but no MONEY!!!

I dun know how a....

juz so tired and 烦!!!!

Stupid Jael!!!

A Noob Guy!!





Mr.Lazy Boii


2011年4月5日

Happinese ♥

5/4/2011


今天早起身 :P

做好准备等老婆来 =]

不过我只睡了4个小时....昨晚睡不着。

113oam

她来了。

我们去麦看戏 :)
看150pm.

我们就去投篮 =]

老婆手感不好 :P

破不到纪录。

140pm准时进戏院。

没有买Couple Sit 但可以坐Couple Sit =]

哈哈 :D

没什么去人看。因为不是周末。

好看到~ 温柔到~ :P

4pm

藕的女人去我家 :]

她累了。

之后就....... =]

第一次那么久 :)

545pm

老婆就回了。

唉~~~~

很舍不得老婆 :(

很想她永远在我身边。

老婆。wofo aifa nifi =]








Mr.Lazy Boii


2011年3月31日

No Title

31/3/2011


最近习惯了两样事情。

1st.

每当我起床的那一刻....

都会注意自己的电话....

看她是否有信息我....

2nd

每天非与她信息不可....

去到哪里都要带着电话....

天天都手不离机....

希望这个习惯都不会改变。

已经有一个星期没和她见面了。

很想她。

好想她。

我真的真的很想念她。

很想拥抱她。

原来爱上一个人的感觉是不同的。

而喜欢一个人的感觉也是不同的。

那种感觉是说不出的感觉。

要自己体会才能懂。

现在的我只知道....

爱她一个就够了。

迁就她一个就够了。

只为她一个付出就够了。

她是我唯一一个。

也是我的最后一个。

昨天我回答了很多问题。

也问了她很多 ''如果.......''

如果那些所谓的如果....

都不会发生....

那该多好啊~

真的真的不要发生啦~~

我朋友也说我变了。

有好也有坏。

好就是。

嘴巴很甜。=]

坏就是。

整天心情不好。

哪有啦~~

又是一个不了解我的人。:S

满脑子都是她。

5天。

快点到5/4/2011

我要见我老婆..... TT









Mr.LazyBoii


2011年3月29日

Fuck Myself

29/3/2011


now the time is 405 am...

I dun sleep tonight.

23/3/2011 night...

I have done a Wrong thing.

I bring food go to her house.

her dog.......

bark her....in front of me....

I saw her suffer face but she still said NotThing...

I'm so Angry myself and my friend.

first time shout to my friend '' get into car!!! ''

I dun know how to said them...

mus have ONE time let you see her de....

but not now....not this moment....

when I get into the car....

so worry her and angry myself...

I'm No Mood adi :(

BAD MOOD!!

but still go to yam cha....

juz Hide my Bad Mood...

when I'm back home....

FB-ing.

I saw her Comment.

'' 原来。。很痛。。痛得眼泪都快掉下来了 ''

when I saw this....

my tears came out :(

coz I can feel that how hurt it's...

I cry inside my heart....

so suffer....

What I've Done??

maybe I should not go then she will not get hurt...

Is me...

All Is My Fault!!

I Hate Myself!!

I cant protect her...

I'm Do Nothing!!

juz a piece of Shit....

I cant forgive myself....

no smile adi....

cant smile anymore....

Sorry....dear~

Is me make you get hurt...

Is me.....



Mr.Nicolai JL


2011年3月28日

Not Good At All

28/3/2011


today....

dun know why....

so sleepy...

nothing to do...juz sleep like Pig :P

today I'm so Excited coz tonight can see her.

she call me wait for her....

ok :)

but 830pm she sms to me.

she cant come adi coz no one fetch her come.

haiz....nvm lah....is ok de....

always tell to myself '' nvm lah.... ok de...''

actually I'm not ok at all :(

she tell me '' u must unhappy one...''

but I'm lie to her...

said '' I'm ok...no unhappy...next time lah...''

finally I'm telling to her....

''sorry..I'm lie to u. actually I'm not good at all..''

miss her everyday...every moment...

my tears come out adi. :(

juz litle bit....tears come out..=[

then she said...

Wednesday back to Pinang for 扫墓...

maybe Thursday back Serdang.

wait again.....

nvm....I Like To Wait For You.

juz Emo now :(

so miss her :(

我很想念你。老婆。



Mr.Nicolai JL

2011年3月25日

Grey Day

25/3/2011


tonight I'm so miss her.

although wednesday we have see each other

but.....

I'm miss her so much :[

I cant let my brain STOP to thinking her.

I dun know why....

coz I Love Her so much...

I saw LouZai them....

have little bit scare.....

I dun know wat happen both of them.

I'm juz scare we will Like them.

hope this will not happen so fast.

I'm gonna study University(UPM) or Form 6.

I cant imagine my new school life.

I'm juz dun wan Neglect her.

now she is my one part of my life.

without her beside of me....

I think I cant Survive anymore.

tonight.....

dun know why....

my mood juz be Cool.

at home..

juz Shut Up at all...

Miss Her Non-Stop :(



Mr.Nicolai JL

2011年3月23日

Worse Day

23/3/2011


today is the SPM result come out day.

I'm wake up 7am on this morning.

eat breakfast with my parents.

then she sms to me.

said she have a Nightmare.

she said she Die adi....

Laofe Pofa...dun scare~ok?

I'm always be with you no matter where you going.

If you really byebye...I accompany you.

then 1150am walk to school.

I saw my old friend.

they all so Beautiful adi but Laofe Pofa most Beautiful :P

1pm take my SPM result loh....................

when I saw my SPM result...

SHIT!!!

juz have a piece of SHIT in front of me.

BM = C
BI = D
BC = D
Science = B
Math = C+
Add.M = G
Akaun = D
Moral = D
Sej = E

actually my mood is Ok one...

but my friends....

their result Better than me.

but them said so Sad coz unlike their result.

HEY!!

you have A but I'm one A also dun have.

Got G one!

dun say in front of me..OK!?

I dun know what I'm doing when I was exam.

DREAMING?!

if is like that...I better go Die!

my mood not good at all.

not because of her is my Result.

I'm juz make my family Disappointed to me.

always make them sad.

their only Hope....

I'm juz Spoil it their Hope.

I'm juz dun wan back home coz cant Face to them. :(

Lucky have her beside of me.

juz have 1 hours 3o min.

my mood get better.

thx...Laofe Pofa :) Love you <3

but when I back to home.

my bad mood coming again.

when I'm was blogging.

my tears come out adi. :(

Sorry....

so sorry....

my dad and my mom.

after crying.

I need to Introspect what I'm doing in last time.

And I need to work hard...

Important is....

Dun Make Them Disappointed Again.



Mr.Nicolai JL


SPM eve

22/3/2011


today I din do anything.

juz at home on9...sms...

also din go to new house there work.

I'm so foolish. right?

when I need money juz tke it from parents.

I dun wan like that adi.

I need a job now.

I dun wan use their money adi...

at night.

I'm feel stress and nervous :(

dun know why will have this feeling...

In front of friend call them dun nervous.

but me....

nervous until no feeling adi....

UPSR and PMR result also dun have this type of feeling.

only this time :(

I'm so scare my SPM result will BAD.

I juz dun wan my parents disappointed to me.

to them...is their only HOPE.

I also dun wan my result get worse.

coz this Paper is to decide my Future.

Hope...hope...hope....

now juz only HOPE.


Mr.Nicolai JL


夜市

21/3/2011


今天第一次陪她逛夜市。

先陪她吃Asam Laksa。

之后就逛逛咯。

然后她要上去我家哦。

天啊~~

我家真的真的很乱的。

可是心软的我还是答应了她。

她上了我家就有一股冲动要帮我收拾。

哈哈^^

我老妈跟她讲了很多东西。==

她只对蛋糕有兴趣罢了啦~

讲太多。很烦啦~

之后就很 ''忙'' 了。:)

10pm 就陪她去找她妹妹。

而我就去meet我朋友咯。

tea until 1am :P

haiz.......

so miss my Laofa Pofe :(

真的不舍得她.....



Mr.Nicolai JL


2011年3月19日

二人世界 ♥

19/3/2011


终于能和她见面了。

心情兴奋:]

可是第一次和她约会竟然迟到。:(

迟整1个小时。:[

很对不起她。

最内疚的是....

她买了戏票但过钟了。

就是因为我的关系。

浪费了她的时间。金钱。

臭巴士!!!

等你等了差不多1个小时。

终于见到她了。:]

很开心:)

和她逛街。买下一场的戏票。去丢篮球。:)

第一次和她看戏。:]

" Rango "

一点都不冷。很Warm~ :P

之后就去她家。:)

虽然有点紧张。但有她在就不会了。

其实她家人很好。很容易沟通。

二人世界。:)

10pm 她爸爸就载我回家。


laofa pofe~
laofe gongfi jinfi tianfe henfa aifa nifi :)
laofe gongfa haihi shifu nafi juha huafi...
duife bufo qife~
dife yifi cifu jiufa chifu daofe leha...
qingfe yuanfa liangfu loafa gongfi.
rufe jinfi laofa pofe zaifu laofa gongfi deha xinhe zhongfi
shifi zuife zhongfu yaohi leha.
laofa gongfi yongfi yuanhi aifa nifi.
yifi shengfa yifi shife.



Mr.Nicolai JL

The Library

18/3/2011


today going to Cut my hair :P

so excited :)

at night.

go out with my fren again.

tis time i'm really Stupid lo...

Believe wat them said...Library~==

actually is go to club.

RM18 to drink a Big cup of alcohol.

that place ok lo...

next time I can bring her go :)

or maybe she wont like that place.

coz so Bising.

then tonight I cant sleep any more.

coz tomolo I gone go out with her.

so happy.

happy until 445am then Sleep. :P



Mr.Nicolai JL

2011年3月14日

Last Day at Kem

13/3/2011


last day in Kem Temasya Rimba Templer.

today I cry...

first time cry at early morning 630am.

coz my Bentong n Sarawak fren wan GO BACK.

很舍不得她们 :(

but I believe we will meet again :)

then I go to find LG.

last time go to find her...go to her dorm :(

last time sit in front of her bed happy with her :(

9am is turn to Sabeh fren GO BACK.

Ying...Teo...Tan wan go back lo~

I will miss them so much :)

950am.

my father came adi.

I need to said Goodbye to her. :(

Before I leave her.

we xxxx 2gether :)

first time do like that.

I Love You. LG

when I back to home.

I'm feel uncomfortable. :(

coz she not beside of me.

miss her so much.

miss my PLKN fren also.



Mr.Nicolai JL

2011年2月5日

EMO

4/2/2011


today go out with fren and teacher.

so happy with them :)

also have 2 angpao from teacher there.

tq. Mrs.Tang

then we go to Pizza Hut eat pizza.

so Delicious and Enjoy :)

then I sms with her.

----Secret SMS----

then she wan see me.

so I quickly take photo.

first time do like that.

I send 2 photo to her.

she so Like it. ^^

Haiz....

I'm so miss her a~!!!!!!!

non-stop thinking of her.....

still have 4 days.

tomolo I need go back to kem.

So miss my fren :[

and her :[



Mr.Nicolai JL

2011年2月3日

除夕夜

2/2/2011


第二天了。

我好想她。

我很想见她。

想念她的笑容。

想念她的声音。

她不在我的身边,我很不习惯。

不能陪在她的身边。

她闷的时候,不能立刻出现在她面前。

就只能用电话联络。

就只能在照片里一直看着她。

No Mood!!

Juz Dun Disturb Me!!

Except Her.




Mr.Nicolai JL

Home

1/2/2011


Today is Back Home Day.

who is in NS kem one will so Happy.

include me :)

I have 2 Excited thing.

1st is my house.

All change adi.

my dad said this end of the month

we must move to new House.

OMG~

holiday not like holiday one.

they Waiting me back to home is to....

Help Them Move And Clean Home.

Lucky I dun hv mohon Cuti lagi~

2nd thing is.

I dun like stay at home.

I love my NS life adi.

I so Miss my Fren and LazyGal.

miss them so so much.

miss until 2am sleep.



Mr.Nicolai JL